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From Suffering to Advocating: My Narrative from the Parkland School Shooting

Amanda Kaine, MS, a medical student, shares a personal experience from the Marjory Stoneman Douglas Shooting, which shaped her life trajectory.

May 14, 2024

“Code red, this is not a drill.”…

an announcement that echoes in my mind, even after all these years.

Hiding under the table, calling my sister and friends with no response and not knowing what the future held. You never take life for granted, unless you are in this type of situation…

Before I go into more, I want to highlight this one remark:

 

“Life is a privilege, live it to your fullest.”

 

I never thought my life, my siblings, or my friends’ lives would be at question.

I never thought I would have to hide under a table for 6 hours with SWAT teams filling the halls.

I never thought I would lose a friend the way I did.

 

I lost my friend, Jaime.

I called her Jaimila.

She was such a light to this world.

She always was happy.

She was happy, despite anything that was wrong or went poorly.

She taught me bravery.

She taught me resillance.

She taught me to above all, “Never give up”.

 

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I miss her every single day.

I grew up dancing with her.

We danced together for years.

She was always my inspiration.

She was kind.

She was everything that we all should aspire to be.

She also never gave up on me..

 

I never thought I would have to hide under a table for 6 hours with SWAT teams filling the halls.

 

Let me share this quick story with you all, to highlight how special she was.

Before Jaime, I had a phobia of elevators. I hated them so much.

Jaime wanted me to conquer this fear…

She went in the elevator with me over and over again.

We played music to distract me.

I remember the words “That should be me” by Justin Beiber blaring in the elevator.

She squeezed my hand tight, as I shook in fear on the way down the elevator.

Then, when I got the hang of it, she let me do it alone, and she would meet me at the bottom- with a big hug.

We did it every day, until I wasn’t scared anymore.

 

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I now live in Miami. We have elevators all around.

I think about her every time I walk into one.

That’s why I take the stairs sometimes. It just makes me so sad because she should still be here today.

Jaime, she taught me resilience; which I have brought with me on my journey in medicine thus far.

I am so grateful for the time I got to share with Jaimila.

 

This day, Feb. 14th, 2018, really changed my life.

It changed my perspective.

It led me to fall ill, due to inability to cope, at such a young age.

It changed my trajectory…

 

People ask me, “Why medicine?”

Well, it’s because of this day.

It birthed my passion to wanting to become a trauma surgeon. It led me to understand what it’s like to be ever so vulnerable…

I want to save lives.

I want to be advocate for gun violence in the realm of trauma surgery.

I want to take out bullet holes, so no one must suffer from something they don’t deserve.

I want to be a part of the change to end the violence, so no one must go through what my community went through in Parkland.

 

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As a future physician, I not only aim to heal, I aim to support my patients in their most scary moments of life.

My history as a teenager was my pavement into medicine.

I don’t do this for me. I am becoming a doctor for the 17 lives lost that day.

I am doing this so I can make them proud, and honor their legacy.

They deserved to live another tomorrow. As a future doctor, I aim to give every patient I encounter ANOTHER TOMORROW… and this.. this is my why.

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  1. I remember that day so well and how poignant it was to happen on the day of the year celebrated for love. I remember meeting you for the first time when you moved to our neighborhood shortly after and thinking what an impressive and kind young lady you were. I am honoured to have known you and have been able to follow your medical journey through FB. Your friend Jamie would be so proud of you.

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